[Poggio]

Merg I think I can agree to that. I know what its like to fall hard, fast and be left rummaging through the wreckage for what feels like eons to figure out what parts are you, what parts are them, and where do you go afterwards.

Each person must find their own path. I can only offer that you find a goal to focus on that will help you work towards something rather than letting your mind dwell on these feelings. Often skills and crafts, rituals of sorts can act as meditation.