[Pinkie]

People just bother me. No matter what you do in life it's never good enough. You can worry about no one but your self and be called selfish and this and that but when you do help and worry about others you get screwed.

It's hard for me to find a middle ground where I am happy because no one is bothering me. I don't think there was ever a time in my life when it was lile that.

I seriously just think I'm done with people in general wich is hard for me to say because I'm a very friendly kind and loving person. However I'm starting to find that I am caring less and less about...anything.

I had an insodint at work where I had to go to therapy. In this I found out something very interesting about myself that I now completely agree with.

I hate emotions. Good bad or otherwise I just don't do emotions. The last time I actually cried was 17yrs ago when my father died on the operating table and brought back. Since then I can't remember the last time I actually showed any emotion. To me it seems to be a way of blocking out the world around me that I just...despise.