[Suzerain of Sheol]

Well, I appreciate the thoughtful words, Coda, even if we're both aware that anything I reply with is going to be tainted by my present condition.

As for getting help, it's a bit of an issue for me since I can't take SSRIs because of my heart condition, and even just in terms of counseling, I find I can never even scratch the surface of my problems before the session expires with a therapist, which always makes me get discouraged and stop going.

It's not like I don't want to get better, though, it's more I don't even have a clue what "better" looks like.

Also I don't want to completely hijack this thread, so should probably cut it there.