[Lawtan]

Honestly sounds like you miss your friends a lot and that the weather is messing with your head - not in the "I am scared" way, but more in the "And suddenly polka dots" way. Combine the two to get dreams that are sad/scary/surreal. (At least that is what happens to me)

Maybe naming the doll after friends will help, if you try to think of it as a way to remember how they lived (the positives). Maybe make something separate for how they died and cast it away (like a little boat)? Or it may just take time.

If you are okay with a hug, I'd offer it. :)