[Poggio]

Well, one, if your father is anything like my father he is just prepared. And his emotional detachment is probably sparing him for when something does happens. For example my dad is always reminding us that he is paying for our graves and has his life insurance policies on us if anything should happen. If it hurts you a lot, perhaps you should try and talk to him and see how he really feels about the situation.

second you may be sane if you realize whats bothering you.

One thing that I would like to say that he also says all the time is "Life is for the living" That isn't to say that if you feel like you have no life, you should end it, rather it is to say that life is worth living and is what you make of it.

It is hard to be positive. The mind always recalls and dwells on the negative and for some reason it is more impact. But change comes from within Law. Make sure you concretely know how you feel, and what goals or such you want to achieve in life before you take on the weight of all that is going on around you.