[Awen Moonshine]

You just don't understand me, it's as simple as that, you just don't want to admit it...

I wish I didn't have such a large family, especially around this time of year. I put so much effort into getting/making them all nice presents for little to nothing in return every time. I just can't stop myself and I get into such a state of panic and anxiety that I struggle with on a daily basis. But none of you seem to care nor even so much as thank me for all the effort I put in and money I can't afford...

I'm really not coping well with things right now. I need a break from the little one, by the afternoon I often find myself loosing it with her, then feeling bad about having to tell her off. This is even worse on days that she decides she doesn't need to have her afternoon nap... I feel like such a failure...