[Awen Moonshine]

I am increasingly feeling like I am nothing more than a burden to you... I hate living here so far from my family and the people that used to be my friends... I have no-one here and unless you take me somewhere I am trapped inside with no real interaction with other people. But at the same time I am happy that I don't have to see people or interact with strangers on a regular basis. I'm not sure if you or my social anxiety is trapping me more, but I can't live like this forever... I don't know what to do anymore because you seem happy with the way things are. All I feel like doing most days is crying until there are no more tears left. I feel fat, ugly and so alone that it makes me question why you are with me and how could you possibly love me? I wish I could just disappear like I had never even existed...