[Lucid:]

I'm sorry to hear that things aren't great with your mom. :( I'm sure it's really hard for you to not have your mom understand what you're going through. I know for some people it can be a lot of work to really understand depression and how it affects people - that's why you get so many people trying to give horrible advice such as "Did you ever try...being happy?" But, I'm really glad that you have the support of your boyfriend and your grandma. Having people around who love and support you is important, even if your mom isn't one of those people yet. Hopefully she'll learn to let go of her own bitterness and try to understand better what you're going through.

If you want to be a writer, I say go for it! There are so many resources online that you can learn just about anything you want to do as long as you put the time into it. Just like any skill, it just takes a lot of practice. As for owning a store or bar, I think it's totally possible to do that and still have a stable income. It just might not be in your immediate future. One path that most people might not even think of is the fast food industry - If you work hard and rise up to supervisor, assistant manager, eventually manage your own store, you gain a huge amount of experience in running a business and would be able to transition over to opening your own place selling whatever you want. Of course that's not the only way to do it, but it's something to consider.