[Illusion]

Originally Posted by Lucid:

Heh. It really depends on how seriously you take getting married. When we were going to marriage counseling, he mentioned that nobody ever told him that marriage would be hard. I mean, seriously? I thought that it was kkindof a given that you have to make sacrifices and compromises in a marriage. So yeah, you're right. A lot of people get married without wanting/realizing the commitment it requires.

The unfortunate thing is that most of the issues we had in our marriage were things that we probably wouldn't have been able to discover just by dating for longer. When I think back to the time when we were dating, it feels like he was a completely opposite person than the one he is now. I don't know if there's anything I could have done better, but it was a pretty unhappy marriage for the majority of the 3 years.

Ugh, I don't mean to vent about it or anything. Just mean to say that yeah, sometimes people get married when they shouldn't, but if you take it seriously, marriage is nothing to be scared of. Plenty of marriages are really awesome.

I've just seen some pretty crappy things throughout my life with, so seeing short marriages just scare me away from even wanting to attempt dating. I'm asexual so I personally never "felt" like something was there like most people. I've had MANY offers before and confesses from both genders, I have to tell gay guys "Oh thank you! I'm not gay, but hey if you find me attractive that means females must feel the same way too!" Or tell girls "Oh. I'm not sure how to respond, I'm not interested in dating anyone at the moment, but thank you for expressing how you feel." And then there's those people that constantly give hints and they think I'm just oblivious to them all when I'm purposely ignoring them. :/ I just don't feel like I can trust anyone to spend my life with, and I don't feel sexually attracted to anyone. When I am interested in someone it's more me asking myself would they be a good wife, could I live with her? What would I have to give up? I don't care about sex, does she?

I dunno, I'm weird and I feel like I require a resume as to why someone should date me, and then have a interview process discussing these things. lol