[Karastorm]

Dear Life;

Why do you have to be so hard for the last few nights I've woken up itchy, irrtated and just plain can't sleep. Last night I cryed my self to sleep yet again. I just wish the pain would go away I can't trust any one any more beacuse you keept throwing curve balls at me, I can't stand my own body or mind any more I littraly hate my self. I feel discourged to try new things as I worry all the time about messin it up and I'm now paranoid that I've pushed people away from me as I feel that undesirable that I don't want people kowing how horrible I really am. That how I think of my slef this big uly eil vile person that deserves tobe beaten up daily jst for being around. So go suck it life.

Your's Kara