[Chi]

Dear you,

I want to help you and be there for you but it's so hard. I'm wearing thin from having to be the wall. I don't understand why you can't stop obsessing over this and just let it go. You say I wouldn't understand but do you know that I actually do and you're the oblivious one? I've been hurting for so long and you unknowingly rubbing it in makes it hurt even more. Do you even care about me anymore? Honestly do you want to be in my life? The only time I ever hear from you is when you need something and I stupidly give in. I care too much and you know that, you take advantage of it. Can't you listen to me? Can't you want to be with me? I've been so alone and you're the worst of them all. I have such a hard time getting to know people and you take advantage of this. Stop pretending and just tell me the truth. I know you're bullshitting me, now admit it. I wish I still mattered to you like you matter to me.

- Me