[zosa]

woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of my garden drowning and could not go sleep until the sun came up, i am also icky feeling and kinda bored but not wanting to be productive

i also had a dream where i had three days to prepare myself because i was the one chosen to die last when the world was eaten by a big thing(videogame style), i died a couple times trying to fruitlessly spend my last three days either preparing to fight it(and lose) or be as hedonistic as possible and live out the last of my time as i pleased before i went to die. after those failures and alternative routes that led to those failures i begged for an extra 24 hours and to be allowed to do the mission as a man(i had been a woman the whole time which did not feel right even though it did make me very popular XD) i was granted my request only now my beloved(who was one of my contacts and a side-quest) did not like me and instead of it being i was going to fail it was i only had four days to make her not hate me. it was super weird

and i am feeling too sick to go outside and see if any of my plants can be saved