[Lawtan]

*Made this a spoiler so people can skip*

I am unsure of the word. Essentially, the college has done all except the full name to say "You are not welcome back here until you have been successful elsewhere...and we will not take any credit for efforts at other colleges, and you will have to submit a full new college application as you did in High School to have a chance of coming back."
At that point, I became more bitter towards that place than before - as I found out this through my requested "Letter of Recommendation" to attend another college over the summer, whereas before they said "You are not healthy, and we do not think you can get better for the next semester, so go, get better, and come back."

*As a note: that has been a factor in me disappearing and my anger towards the college...and why I have been avoiding members of said college, though I still consider them my friends and would support them...if I still could. This is also an apology/explanation to them. The other has been the mix of things already listed elsewhere.