[Fauxreal]

I got the cards super fast - your mind must have been ready!

Okay so, Basically you have been fighting yourself. You have all these unsatisfied wants and desires because you are putting obstacles in the way.
You have in you all this goodness, perfect joy and love is in your heart and for some reason you aren't letting that out.
You have to learn to be honest with yourself. Use your mind to guide you and your heart will follow. Also - use your brain to solve problems. You deserve to be happy, it's already in your future that perfect joy, you just have to let it out.