[Fauxreal]

I don't like being upset.

I have lupus and in my life I've come to realize it's stupid to get upset about stupid shit. I would rather spend my time being happy and laughing.

But something absolutely, utter ridiculous, just happened. I really should just leave well enough alone but... it's... UG!

So - I find out today that not only did R, one of my sisters, buy mom a DSXL, but Z, another sister, bought one for herself.

Okay sure, Now R gets mom's old 3DS, and mom gets a new one and Z has one as well, so the only one who had been saying even before they came out, 'oh I really want a 3ds' doesn't have one and everyone else does - you know I could actually live with that. I'm cool with that...that I can actually let go of -

... but being the butt of the daily joke ~ "HAHA! We wanted to see how long it took you to notice!" That is a bunch of bull shit and it's hurtful.

They have keeping that a secret since Christmas. So - at least a month. I realize they are not doing this... I hope - but it feels like they have been snickering behind my back for at least a month. A MONTH!

While I look like a stupid ass as they play with their toys.

First of all I share everything with them.
Example. I bought Animal Crossing for the 3DS so we can all play, even though at the time only mom had a 3DS. And we shared it - as a matter of fact, I played it less then the both of my sisters.
I'm am their older sister and I want to share everything with them. It's my job to take care of them and make sure they have what they need and want, even if I go without.

That is my fucking job and I do it with pride.

And it hurts that two people I care so much about made me into a joke.

I know. I know. I'm blowing this out of proportion and it's stupid. It's so dumb of me. But. Ug. I feel like an idiot. I feel them made me basically look like an idiot.

I have such a headache right now.