[Obbiesan]

So i know i havent always been super active cause of my job and my life but i feel like this is the only place i have to talk, rant, ask for help. Im currently having what seems to be a complete mental meltdown. I cant go a day with out randomly breaking down in tears, feeling like complete shit or wanting to just stay inside and talk to no one. I'm not quite sure what has brought this on, me and mizzy seem to be doing fine, my work like is decently ok along with home life being just as good. But for what ever reason i feel like the world is just crushing me i feel like i have no one to reach out to. I am even worried that whats happening is going to drive mizzy away beacuse i text her so much on a nightly basis while she is asleep cause i work at night and that she is going to be so over whelmed by this. I guess im just looking for advice i have already talked to my parents to try and get some help either with meds or some therapy but idk what to do in the mean time as we speak im choking back tears not knowing what is causing me to want to cry. Well i guess this is the end of my post, rant thing im not sure if i should even have posted this but i dont know where else or what else to do.