[Lawtan]

...So, I am likely going to be killing off Kadia in my next post. Reasons: I miscreated Kadia, and in trying to adapt her poor fitting into Eschaton, I pretty much had to result to myself, who having many things I do my best to keep inside, did not bode well towards keeping her character. Also, I tried to make Kadia too many things, as I never played an RP and was too eager to try to do everything. A healer, rogue, psychic, priestess, rebellious, and caring...and I had to make her life crapsack-y so I took a leaf from my book...and I tried to make her unique and artistic, so I tried to write her as shifty like an element.

What I wanted to make was a reliable Asian-styled rogue with the ability to heal and a hopeful (if rebellious) demeanor. Admittedly, that fits here terribly (no locks to pick, world dictatorship by the church, end of the world, etc.).
What resulted was a scarred insane mess that is a degree (or five) worse than myself, that was incredibly difficult to work with and admittedly not good for myself - she became a more negative mirror for me. I had hoped to have her hospitalized soon, so she could come back like that later on - perhaps trained to heal others better, and restored to some semblance of happiness...and stealing food to give the poor on the side...mainly because I want to move on, not have to write the part of me that I recall from when I feel the worst - it is not that therapeutic and is more like a step back.