[Lawtan]

Well, I am changing colleges/schools...which is a bit difficult as I have at most one semester under my belt.

Situations (and realizations) have put off my former college (Carnegie Mellon) from my plate for a while (A year or until I get a Bachelors Degree elsewhere, I don't know which).

This is highly bittersweet for me. On one hand, this makes it much easier for me to construct a life that is akin to the summation of SUMMIT (Archery, Falconry, History, Arts, Music, Astronomy)...it means more regrets for myself - it is a form of alienation from those I have come to care about in real life.

My pride is such as to feel personal shame at being behind, even though most who I know to have went through what I have are worse on the stability-livelihood-success scale.

This is not meant as a "woe is me" sort of thing - I do not want pity or worry. This is simply to let loose a stressor in my current life.

I will admit to being lost.