[Chi]

I decided to make another post instead of editing my first post or making another thread...

I've been in a low point of my life right now. Probably not low as some of you have said lately but if you could, please bare with me... My thoughts are gonna be really jumbled too, sorry if I'm not clear.

I didn't read through it, but whether I mentioned it or not. My sister and her husband moved in with us back in May or April. At first I was pretty mad about it but now it's starting to have a different effect on me. When they moved in they were given a set of 'rules', and by set of rules my parents told them they had to do certain stuff and that was it, nothing written or whatever. They haven't been following these 'rules' and the last time I brought it up to one of my parents their reaction was either, "I didn't see it so it did happen." or "Oh my god get over it and quit complaining." It gets under my skin because as soon as I do something my parents 'don't approve of' all my sister has to do is say it happened and they talk to me about it. Another thing my sister and him do is doing stuff just to upset me or emotionally hurt me. I'll start talking about my day or something and they weren't listening even though they wanted me to listen to their story. Or one thing that my dad has actually done a few times that when I start talking they interrupt me to say, "Get to the point" or "Don't care", the latter is more of my sister. This all probably seems so small to some of you. It is hard for me though to see my parents say that them moving in doesn't effect me and, "Well what am I supposed to do? I didn't see it happen." When my sister and him treat no one with respect. To put this a little more into perspective, my brother-in-law hasn't had a job in two years, does not actively look for one and does not take care of their two dogs or help around the house. When he does help, only after he's been asked/told several times and not during some sort of game on tv. It may just be me but if I was in a situation like theirs I would be trying my hardest to get a job and move back out. My parents also keep promising to talk to him about this stuff but never do and I'm starting to doubt they ever will. Sorry this seems so childish but it's starting to take it's toll on me...

Another thing that has been wearing me thin is school. Things were starting to get better I thought but it's actually just been going downhill since the semester started, it only slowed down when I thought it was getting better. I was originally set up to graduate in the summer with a Major in Computer and Information Science and a Minor in Mathematics. That much is still true, except I had to push my graduation back to next year. Not only will I be in university for 5 years next Spring, but I need to go an extra semester because of unseen bs on the school's part. Not only did some of my credits from my first university not count for anything besides, "Look I wasted my time on this course because you won't even count it as an elective" I was also told I could graduate from completing an internship. Surprise, Internships count as 1 elective credit hour and it doesn't stack. It's one, total. Whereas Co-Op is up to 3 or 4, but the way they set it up is really asinine. When you do a Co-Op, its full time work, you can't schedule any classes with it, and it's only offered Spring Semester + 6 weeks of Summer. No Fall, only Spring and Summer. This has caused me a lot of stress which has fueled my depression. After all this had 'settled out' I still wasn't doing well in my courses.
One of my courses ended last month and I got a D which I was extremely disappointed about. I cried for several hours because I've never gotten anything lower than a C before. I was also really afraid of what my parents would say. I went and talked to my professor about it because even though he was very nice it was just hard because I was doing okay, my quizzes were very high but he put so much emphasis on exams, we only had two, and I did not do well at all. When he was talking to me about my grade and rhetorically asking me, "What happened?" I started crying. I felt so embarrassed and told him I was sorry for getting so upset, I just couldn't help it. When I finally told my parents, they were surprisingly supportive. I say surprisingly because they've been rather harsh before, my mother has even called me a failure before so I was afraid of what they would say to me.
I'm also falling behind in my classes. I am trying my best to catch up and do the work I need to do but I'm struggling. I also don't have much of a drive besides trying to do well and get a good grade. From the stress and depression I've been sleeping a lot which causes me to fall behind too. One day I slept for 16 or some hours, that's two thirds of the day sleeping. I still managed to complete my assignments this week but not after struggling to make up for lost time.

I wish I had something that could maybe pull me out of this funk, busy work if you will. I tried with video games but I'm starting to get to points that are after story or side stuff that just takes a long time. It sucks that something that normally gives me so much joy is starting to 'fall short'. I don't work anymore, I left my other online team because I didn't like the way things were going and besides school I have 'nothing' to do. I was gonna start a project with my grandmother's help but I'm going to need to wait until Winter Break.

Sorry I'm so mopey and meh. I wish I could get out of this funk.