[Pinkie]

I feel your pain there dear. My grandmother lost her battle with cancer 5 years ago and it still hurts like it was yesterday. She was a big person in my life and my best friend. I loved her so much and I didnt get a chance to say goodbye either as she died in her chair at home while sitting with my grandfather. She like you said was one in a million and nothing would replace her ever.

Though the way I see things is that the pain and heartache you feel or the constant thought of her is just her with you everyday. I am a very strong believer in the after life and spirits and all of that. I know my grandmother is beside me when I have problems or if im going through a hard time because I can feel her watching over me. You will be sad for as long as you need to be but I can tell you this its just a way for you to remember the amazing women she was.

It is true that she wouldnt want you to be sad but at the same time emotions like that keep us bound to what is important to us in life. Even if that important person is no longer living that does not mean that they are not there with you day in and day out. Little things will remind you of your auntie just as they do for my grandmother but the only thing to do is to keep her in your heart and realize that she is no longer suffering. Yes she is gone but will forever remain by your side. Keep your head up and continue to think of the great person your auntie was even if that makes you sad because those emotions tell you your still living...even if it hurts.