[Pinkie]

Well I think the title says it all...

There are things that make me say this. The bf that I live with is out of town on work. He works 20 days then he comes home for 8. He works about 3 hours out of town so going to see him or him me is not happening. Well he is back right now for his second load and I am once again alone.

We need the money so I understand why he left it just sucks for so many reasons. One im alone all the time. I dont get phone calls or texts I just sit here day in and day out unless I look for work. Well on the 22nd of Aug is the bfs and mine 4th anniversary and hes working right through it. Then the same for my birthday on the 18th of Sept.

I have no way to go anywhere or do anything and im finding that the longer im alone the more depressed I get. I keep reaching out to try and talk to some one or do something but my options keep failing me...I am getting to the point of.. I have no idea what to do and I feel as though I am loosing my mind. Slowly each day part of it leaves.

Have you ever felt really alone? If so why?
Any advice so I can keep my sanity?
Or should I just suck it up and slowly go insane?