[Asami]

Im just trying my hardest with what ive got.
It sucks that I live in a small town with a limited number of places I can walk to to apply for jobs
I think ive applied to mcdonalds like 10 times already.

You're right. I do appreciate things a lot. Heck I cherish every little thing I get.
Especially clothes and shoes because my mom hates buying me those things especially.
Im lucky that mikes family Is just the best. I love them so much and im so happy they understand.
I think I would have given up long ago if I didn't have Mike. Because the. I would not even have a single way out unless if I burdened a friend or just became homeless or something.
Idk.
Im pretty blessed to have him. I really do love him a lot.

Sometimes I just cant help but to cry and feel worthless though.
I feel like im stuck in a standstill
Like time is moving fir everyone but me.

But in trying.
I tried begging my mom to let me start school and she rejected me completely
needless to say I cried so hard. It takes a lot of courage for me to ask my mom stuff like that.
And it just hurts more and more each time.
Idk why I ever think "this time will be different"