[Chi]

Hi Lucid! -Snugs-

In relation to work, I'm thinking if I can keep myself from spending a boatload of money, maybe eventually I can buy a PS4 from all that money made. Haha. I make about... 300+ dollars every two weeks, would be more if we didn't have to pay taxes. P: Oh, I see. Maybe I wouldn't feel so bad about taking longer to graduate if tuition rates stopped going up... but that's just how the world is. Oh yeah, if I do keep working in the fall I'll be limited to only working on weekends, I have class every day.

I've been put in a lot of situations that I have to work on bigger projects alone. I can understand how important it is to learn that way. But, I kind of feel like it's necessary to have a team too. They shouldn't be dependent on one person to figure out all the big problems. I'm glad to hear that not every place is like school. Yes, that certainly is true.

Oh yes, I already have the number for career services to ask about internships or co-ops. Again, I'm hoping to work with a team or at least have enough time to figure out how to do what's asked of me. I've been trying to find something in my field even if not programming but maybe IT work. I think that would be good too.

I wouldn't say relieved. Even now I'm still upset about it. Besides what I mentioned in my first post I feel that he kind of gave up on me. After we broke up, he told me he wanted to try and rekindle what we had, that was going to do what he could. When I told him the same things I had told him numerous times before, "I don't want to birth children." "I don't appreciate when you don't stand up for me." "It bothers me that you try to guilt me into things I don't want to do." etc, he does a complete 180 and says, "I guess it just wasn't meant to work out." I'm still pretty hurt by that. He told me recently, "I keep thinking if I didn't mess up maybe we'd still be together." and I just tell him it was no one's fault. I'm confused though too because I want to move on but at the same time I don't. I'm not looking for anyone but I don't like being single either. I'm sure being single right now is the best thing for me though.

Thanks for reading it Lucid, it means a lot!