[Chi]

Hey everyone, most of you probably thought you'd never see me again.
I've been so busy, the only thing I've been doing is going to work then coming home and relaxing.
I started working at a grocery store back in the beginning of June. My parents gave me a choice, either summer school or working. Considering how anxious I get when I go to college I chose the latter. It probably wasn't the best choice considering this will be my 5th year of college and I'm not sure I'll be done in the Spring of 2014, that's what I'm hoping for though. As a lot of you guys know, I'm a Computer Science major, I recently added a Mathematics minor to my agenda. Which fortunately, I will qualify for in the spring.

As for my job, it's been rather difficult. I know you guys probably think I'm just silly or dramatic. I spend either 5, 6 or 7 hours a day, 5 days a week, lifting heavy boxes. My specific department is pricing, shelving and organizing merchandise. I'm not sure if after the summer I'll be able to keep working. I really want to dedicate my time to schooling.

Going back to talking about school for a bit, I'm a little scared that getting closer to graduating and being done that I may crack under pressure. I'm not too confident in my skills and I'm afraid I won't do well without help which was probably a sign I should have picked a different major. Unfortunately, besides the deadlines and stuff I really do like programming. I like programming when I can decide what I'm doing and when it's due. I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I'm done with college though. I want to work with a gaming company, either tech stuff or even just Q&A. I think that would be really neat.

My boyfriend and I finally split. After five years, we had no future plans. He expected me to move to him so that he could keep his friends. I never expected him to move here, I was even willing to move when college was done but not to where his friends live. Any of you that know him, his friends have been nothing but awful to me since he and I started dating. And he wasn't willing to stand up for me or our relationship, probably should have split a long time ago... Another thing was, after four years of dating, he all the sudden wanted kids. I am willing to have children, but honestly... I want to adopt. I rather adopt than have children. That's just how I feel. There's a few more reasons but those two big things were kind of why we broke up.

I hope all of you guys are doing okay. I know I'm not around often or at all but I do try to check up and see how everyone is doing. I still care about you guys. Oh, I know this probably isn't the place, I'll check the Gaming forum but I've been playing the new Animal Crossing if any of you want to be friends with me. Send me a PM or something with your Friend Code.

I know this whole post was pretty jumbled and confusing. Why did I post this? I'm not sure, I just wanted to. Just thought I'd let anyone know how I'm doing. I'd love to hear from you guys!