[Natsunaine]

Well, Battz I can tell you from personal experince that it wont be easy, but what your feeling is perfectly normal and uncontrolable your mind is trying to comprehend something it is no where near ready for. The best thing to do is to stay in contact with people and try your best not to be alone surround your self with freinds and family who care and try to keep your mind of this problem. It will be hard, and at times you will want to give up but the key thing is to not give up. I myself gave up and almost fell into the arms of suicide its not a pretty picture.. Just know I am here for you as is everyone else and I am terribly sorry you had to feel the pain of losing a parent at a young as as i did... If you need me i am just a message or a phone call away your not a lone..

I love you to death as a freind, Hope to hear from you soon you are in my thoughts.

Love, Natsu.