[Fallen]

Yeah, that's the problem. I'm dependent. My parents are helping me a lot financially.

I believe that my boyfriend (let's call him Joe) would help me if he could. We've briefly discussed if this sort of thing were to happen. I suppose when he gets home tonight we'll see whether or not he seriously can.

Another really big factor that I'm struggling with is that I've been discussing this issue with other [older] friends and each seem to support me moving out to get away from my parents. One because she believes my family is a poison, the other because she believes that I need to direct my own life. Even my school therapist was advocating for me to make a move soon so that I could get financial aide for the next semester.

On the other hand, internally I have what you've said going on. The last couple times I've been threatened by my parents, I've been wondering if I should put things on hold. Yet again, there is a problem: my parents believe that "putting it on hold" means having no contact with him whatsoever until I'm able to move out. I was told specifically that if I said I broke it off with him but continued speaking to him and my step-father found out that he would pack my bags and bring me to a shelter.

If I were to suggest putting things on hold to my parents, how do I negotiate an allowance for me to continue talking to him? I still deeply care for him and would at least like to at least remain friends until we're able to begin dating again.

P.S. I doubt that I will be moving on to another boy. I was making a hypothetical. I'd be more prone to wait for Joe than to get over him. My point was that if I did, it would more than likely just result in the same problem I'm having now. (Assuming I'm still living with my parents. Even if I'm not, there is no doubt in my mind that they will try to butt in and change what they disapprove of.)