[Fallen]

Hey, guys. I know it's been a while since I've actually posted on here... there might not be nearly as many active users as I remember, but I've gotten myself in a situation where now I do not know what to do. I know it's selfish of me to ask for advice being the inactive user I am, but I need help.

To give you a pre-reading summary: this issue concerns my relationship with my boyfriend, my family, and whether or not I will have a place to live in the next three months.

Before I begin:

• Real names will not be used.

I am going to request --or rather, it might be said that I will demand-- that my real name not be used in this thread nor any other thread where this issue is discussed.

• The religion in which I was raised will not be stated.

Again, any users who know about my personal life, please do not state any excess information that is not already explained in this post. Period.

The story:

I'm nineteen.

My parents are... well, many would categorize them as very religious; however, they tend to bend the rules for themselves whenever they feel as though they are in the right. With that said, they are religious to an extent. If I am doing something they disapprove of, they will actively take steps to change it into something they approve of. If I make a mistake, depending on the mistake, I will be severely punished or treated with mercy.

Last semester I met a boy that I really liked. I met him through a mutual friend. We were dating by October. We've been dating ever since. The problem is: my parents do not approve.

I've already been through a number of trials since my boyfriend and I started dating. I've been threatened to be kicked out, told I was turning my back on God and told I was turning my back on my family. My father even told me he was considering committing suicide. Now it has gotten to the point where I am no longer allowed to have my phone outside of school hours, I am no longer receiving financial help from my family to attend Community College and if I do not break up with my boyfriend by the end of summer, I will no longer have a home to stay in either.

I need to go to school in order for my Career to become a reality. I already know what I am going to do and have already put in years of time, effort and emotion into my schooling to become what it is that I want to become. I've been attending college since I was a Sophomore in high school.

I need a place to live in order to be presentable for school.

The thing that is really bothering me about this whole situation is that the person I date is my decision. Whether or not I am in a specific religion or bloodline (for those who understand because of fascist parents) my boyfriend; my marriage mate; my future; my life is my decision. If I give up on my relationship, not only am I breaking my boyfriend's heart, I'm breaking my own and condemning myself to living with a family that I severely dislike due to their inability to accept the decisions I've made. On top of which, if I do leave him and am happy afterwards, there is a high chance that I will find yet another male companion to date that they do not approve of. This is boyfriend #3 that has been rejected. I don't exactly have the best taste for my parents.

I don't know what to do. I feel frustrated and depressed and overly stressed. Even when I'm not dating someone, my family and I are always at each other's throats because no one knows how to care for a family. Both of my parents are unstable and incapable of successfully caring for a family. It could be that I am incapable of these things as well... but I'm not getting married right now. I'm not trying to raise a family. I'm trying to raise myself and become a successful young woman.

I'm getting off topic...

The point is: I may be homeless in three months.

Advice?