[Pinkie]

Hey everyone...this is just a little thing about my life that, frankly I dont know what to do about.

So the bf and I are having money issues. I currently dont have a job and am looking for one. He is going back to school this up coming monday so he no longer has a job as well. We just paid rent for the next month but it puts alot of stress on me because if I dont get a job by the end of next month I am pretty much homeless. Food is getting tight and the money in the savings is running out. I try so hard everyday looking for work and nothing seems to bite...

Then its my family life. Where to start there... My grandfather just had a stroke and his entire left side of his body no longer works. After that my uncle passed away after being in the hospital sick for months.

The biggest thing though is my dad... My dad is 70 years old and his health is going fast. Everyday seems to be a new challenge. He is having mini strokes in a day. Some times it wont happen at all then other days he would have up to six. Lately has been bad and the entire family wonders how much longer we have with him. Today I was up at 4am in the morning because my father called me. He thought it was like 2pm in the after noon. After that I got another call at 5am then again at 6am. I go over to my parents and I find out from my mother that my father fell yesterday and couldnt get back up. He was outside on the deck and fell. He crawled into the condo though he couldnt get up and laid on the floor until my mother got home from work. He was not near a phone or anything so he just laid there. As such the door was not closed outside and he got frostbite all over his his leg and foot making his big toe black. I am scared that we wont find him in time one day...

Times are rough and I really... Just dont know what to do any more. Is it sad that I have all but given up hope? I dont know what advice you could give but... I am willing to hear almost anything right about now. Even if its just a 'Hope things get better'... Anything helps right?