[Pinkie]

Mizuki sat there in Thalions arms and lap as the male spoke. First on how he looked everywhere for him and yet there was nothing to be found. Really Mizuki should of known that it would of taken the male time to find him. The trip to the harbor was a long one never mind adding the effects of the trip over seas. That alone added so much time and yet Mizuki still held it against the male. Well...kind of.

Though this was when the male began to speak on how once he was found that he did everything in his power to help the help the male and get him free. Though Mizuki didnt know if that was true. However at that thought something in the back of his mind told him that he was being stupid and that the words falling from Thalions lips were real and true. He knew deep down they were but he needed some kind of excuse for everything that happened right?

However Mizuki raised his head a little as Thalion spoke of the day he came to. Yes he remembered that day clearly. It was the day that he thought he was going to be freed of the cruel kings rule but he was wrong as the next time he awoke he was in the kings chambers chained how he was used to. At that moment was when the doubts began to set in his head about everything. He thought he had his freedom but it was taken before it was given.

However his thoughts changed as Thalion went on to say that Nytria would of been killed if Thalion took Mizuki at that time. Yes...he would of been. That thought right there made everything Mizuki thought of change. How could he of been so selfish? Yes he had tired what and when he could to get to his son the more he tried the more he failed and it got to him. That was another thing that ate at his heart the fact that he knew his son was in trouble and yet could do nothing to help him.

Mizuki was about to start his struggles again to free himself but he stopped as Thalion spoke up again saying that if he could switch them places he would of. This caused Mizuki to growl and shake his head. Since he couldnt get free of the arms he turned in them until he looked at the male. Lavender eyes were filled with pain and heartache as he looked to him and spoke "No" He said "Never wish something like that" Mizuki said shaking his head.

"I..." Though he paused a moment "I would never wish that upon anyone" He said with a shiver "Anything...everything..." He said "All of it" Mizuki sighed a little as he hung his head some "I...cant blame you and yet I have" He said broken "The one that I knew would do anything to protect me and here I am blaming you for nothing...." Mizukis whispered lightly "This was my fate..." Mizuki said "All the torturing and pain I caused for the years spent under the east king was repaid in full" He said lightly with a sad broken laugh.

That was how he thought of it. Karma was a bitch and no good deed goes unpunished at least that was his thinking. He paid his price for the lives he took and the people he hurt over the years and he did it all in the four the king had him. Two hundred years of pain felt in four...it was a wonder that he was still living. Though with that thought came another. The reason why he was still living was the male that still held onto him.

"The only thing.." Mizuki said as he moved his eyes and once again looked to Thalion "...that kept me alive for those years..." He said "Was the thought that one day I would once again be in your arms" Mizuki whispered to Thalion "Then..." He began "It didnt happen..." He cringed a little "You pulled away...and that...hurt more then anything that the king could of done" He said hanging his head fully. "I wanted to make the effort...to try and get better" He said lightly "Its hard...to do it alone" He spoke in a barely there whisper.

This was when Mizuki moved a little and if he was forced to stay within the males arms then he was at least going to be there in a way he could handle. Moving he sat himself sideways in Thalions arms before placing his head on the males shoulder hidden in his neck. With pale smaller hands curling up Mizuki curled into Thalions chest and for the first time in almost nine years he felt safe.