[Rosekitten]

As soon as Mizuki said to let him go he didn't. If he backed off now it would take him a while to bother trying again seeing as he was pushed away no matter what he said. At the least he had gotten a few words out of the other this time around. That was more then what he got most of the time.

He hated holding the other when he clearly did not want it but he knew if he let go it wouldn't help things anything. He knew what was coming as Mizuki struggled and said what took him so long. Those words.. right there hurt more then anything else Mizuki could say. What took him so long, he had wasted every free moment of his time trying to find out where Nytria and Mizuki were. He didn't sleep trying to figure out if some bandits had them or some slaver camp. He had tried to think of everything while dealing with holding together a kingdom that was ready to split in two without the second king being there and on the brink of war with the fae invading.

He cringed a little feeling the spell make contact with his arms. Mizuki still screaming and trying to free himself. Saying he had waited four years. Saying it like Thalion had been sitting somewhere wasting his time as the other suffered. That was hardly the case, he had nearly killed himself trying to find the other until the day Beltran came along and said he knew where Mizuki was.

After Mizuki seemed to stop struggling was when Thalion's ears fell though he was still holding Mizuki no matter the pain that ripped through his arms from the ice spell. He shook his head a little before speaking. "I know I took too long.. and I can't change that. There is nothing I can do to change that. Everyday I wished that I could go back to that night and follow after you and Nytria. If I had been there things would have been different. Hell I don't know maybe I could have saved you both then."

He moved a little resting his head against Mizuki before going on. "I looked everywhere and there was no hints no clue on where you two were at or who took you. I did everything and prayed to any being who might listen to help in some damned way... Not that it did any good even when there was a war threatening to destroy this kingdom I still tried to find you."

Letting out a sharp breath he went on knowing it was probably on deaf ears but he had to say it. "After I found out where you were finally I did everything in my power to get you and Nytria out safely... if it were as easy as sending a army over and taking over a kingdom I would have. But it wasn't damn it... I couldn't do anything but watch and wait till I had a chance to get you both out safely. If I had tried to take you both or even one of you the other would have been killed. The fae knew who you and Nytria were."

Though the more he said it started to sound like excuses to him as he cringed a little still holding Mizuki against him. "That day you came to.. you remember it.. I wanted to do nothing other then to take you back home that day.. I couldn't and leave our son."

Even if he had taken them sooner he would have had to have gone back to get the king. Seeing as he was needed to remove the spell from Mizuki. Though it wouldn't have been a upper hand that they had at that time and it might have been the mistake of killing the fae lord and Mizuki would be no longer.

"If I could go back and switch places I would, there wouldn't be a second thought about it I would happily take your place as long as you both were safe. But I can't go back in time and do so and I keep failing you. Every damn time I turn around and try to make things right something else goes wrong." It was true. Nothing had gone right, Mytria recovering was about the only thing that had gone correctly. The Kingdom being rebuilt as well. Next to that everything else was still as screwed up as the day it happened.

He thought a moment over everything Mizuki had screamed at him before breathing a little. "Hate me if you want... i'd deserve it. You are right I took too long and this whole mess is my fault." If he had known sooner.. no it needed to be that he had taken Mizuki's place.