[Pinkie]

Mizuki was in the room thinking to himself as the knock came to the door. Then Thalions voice reached through the door asking if he was sleeping. All the while he didnt turn his head. As Thalion opened the door and entered the room he turned to look at him once before looking back out and gazing at the same spot he had been for hours. It was not until he heard the footsteps of the male walk closer to him did he tense though.

Dipping down his ears he growled a little as they grew closer though that growl stopped as Thalion did. The silence that fallowed almost ate Mizukis heart. Something in him wanted the male to speak to say anything at all and he got his wish as he heard him start slowly "You know I still love you right? Even if I've been a idiot for a while now about showing it." Though those words sparked something in him and he hunched over more.

How could Thalion still love him? After everything that had happened he wouldnt blame anyone for not loving him. It pained his heart at the same time to think that Thalion still loved something so dirty. That thought alone brought shivers to his hunched spine. These only grew worse though as Thalion spoke again "No matter what happened or what you think that'll never change."

It would never change...those words seemed to stick in his head yet the only response he could come up with was calling the male a liar but as such he should point to himself with those words. Lightly his shoulders shook a little "How..." He said lightly "How could you..." He said "Im so dirty Thalion....and no matter how many times I bathe and scrub my skin raw..." He said as he hiccuped "I cant get clean" He said in a quivering voice as he curled up more.

"I try as hard as I can with everything I have to forget and move past what I did in those years..." He said before looking to Thalion. His eyes shed tears of sorrow and they bled with pain and anger "...what I suffered with...every night for four years..." He hissed with a shiver "I...I cant spread that filth" He said as he began to break and the tears began to flow again "You are to good for me Thalion...just...leave me behind like the broken toy I am" He hissed before his head fell to his knees as he he finally broke and every tear for the past nine years fell at once.