[Pinkie]

The time ticked by and it was little that anyone could do to even get close to Mizuki at times. The male was to...sheltered in his own mind to realize that the people around him were those that he cared for and that cared for him. No nothing like that came to mind. All that did come to his mind was that he was not going to let anyone near him so he could feel that pain again and that meant even Thalion.

Over the time Mizuki began to grow use to the body he had though he began to notice that little by little Thalion pulled away until he hardly saw the male at times. This right there began to put thoughts into his head. Was it the fact that he was male that Thalion loved him? Ever since he realized that he was in a female body it was a thought that rested on his mind. It became the forefront of many dark thoughts as the days moved on.

Now almost five years had vanished in almost a blink of an eye and Mizuki seemed to of had no progress made. It was sad to those around him. Not only did he refuse touch from Thalion but the kids and others as well. He just couldnt bare the thought of being touched. Little did anyone know but as the times moved by and the more time he spent alone the more he began to think. Often he thought to hard but in the end it lead to him remembering something from the trip he had away from the kingdom with the faes.

By the time the fourth year came Mizuki remembered almost all of what took place. Everything from the beatings he got to what he was forced to do and the rapes...the countless rapes. That thought there was the one that didnt allow others to touch him. Why would he let them touch his filth? He was dirty and used and that was his only thinking and to a point where he pushed the one he loved away from him. As such Thalion ended moving rooms in the process to save grief...yet the action only darkened thoughts.

As such Mizuki normally spent his days alone in his room. Sitting either on the deck or window for countless hours just staring out watching the day pass by. Yes things would change but at the moment to many dark thoughts clouded a dark mind. Telling him he was unloved for many reasons and it only prooved more of a point as all left him to his thoughts.

Luna had been one of the only ones to try and get to Mizuki. She had spent hours with the newly found female though she had to admit she didnt like the new Mizuki. No in fact she wanted the male back so most of her time was spent talking with Mizuki. Or rather trying to get the male to talk. Luna did though get somethings here and there and seemed to make herself question some things. Not only that but question some motives from the males lover as well.

So this was where she found herself looking for the male. Luna did find him after some time sitting at the grand dinning table with a glass and a bottle. Though the bottle had one drink out of it and that was before the male not even touched."Whats wrong?" She asked with a tilt though as the male said his response she gave a sigh. How right that statement was at this moment. Even though Mizuki and Nytria was home both seemed to be recovering. Nytria had little moments here and there but nothing like Mizuki.

Moving Luna gave a little sigh as she pulled the chair out and sat down. Luna and Thalion never really were the close types. Well they were in their own way and over the years as much as she hated to admit it she began to care for the drow infront of her. Not just over the fact that he was her masters mate, no, it came to more then that though if she was asked people would die. This was the relationship they had, fighting, arguing with fast quips and mermers. Though if it came down to things Luna would lay her life down for Thalion and in a way she knew the male knew that.

Though her thoughts ended as Thalion spoke "I suppose relationship advise is out of the question." Luna smirked at that. He was really asking for advice on how to lay her master? That was funny. Thalion never did have the issue before though now was different. Even with those thoughts she knew what she was going to reply to him though that changed as he spoke again "It's been over four years, it's nearly been five years and nothing has improved."

Right there she could say something but the male continued about a smart comment. Well she wanst going to take one but if the male wanted it then she would give it "You dont try hard enough...this isent a spare Thalion" She said and right away the glare made her smile "But...in all reality..." She said after a moment. Right then Luna changed, she was not her normal self richious self. No she seemed sad but almost caring at the same time.

"Have...you even tried to just...talk with her?" Luna said as she tilted her head "Right now the thoughts running through his head is that hes used and broken" Luna said lightly "That no matter what he dose he will never be clean again" She said with a sigh as she looked down a little to her hands in before her "Talking her...Mizuki is broken in many ways Thalion...though he only breaks more each day you dont try" She said to him and at that Thalion looked to her.

"Yeah he will flinch and pull back but some times you need to try harder and not just give up the moment he dose so" She said with a little growl "He needs to know that even after everything with that bastard down to the gender means nothing to you..." Luna sighed. "Moving away from him, pulling back...it just adds to everything" Luna said lightly "Yet here you are..." She said standing "Alone just as he is" She said with a shake of her head before she turned to leave though stopped.

Luna had a point and she knew she did. As she stood there she debated over something that she had thought of for a long time. Because she poked and proded Mizuki she found things out that no one else knew. One of those things being just how much Mizuki remembered. She knew though that Mizuki remembered more then he let on even to her and what she had found out. She was almost positive that if Thalion tried he would find out more.

"You know what..." Luna began before she turned a little to look at the hunched over forum of Thalion "If I was you...I would talking to her and asking Mizuki exactly what she remembers" Luna said lightly "The answer might help heal something that is still breaking but not broken" Luna said as she turned again and left the male to his thoughts. Asking Mizuki would bring up painfull memories. Most of which would cause either a mouthed or a physical reaction. All starting with tears but all ending in the healing process.