[Umaeril]

I was like you, really unhappy to be in college right out of HS. It was not what I wanted to be doing. My parents were really upset with my decision to leave college and work but I never regretted doing it. Then, eventually, I went back and I finished college. But first I had fun for a few years. It was a great time. Then I transitioned back to college by going part time. My parents were so happy at that they supported me all the way. Happily there are alternative paths to the same end.

On the other hand you may as well get through college now. One can see it from this viewpoint too, right? But if you are really just going to fail then you should listen to what your inner self is telling you. That rage and restlessness is a message to your self. Either find a way to make college work by examining your major or defer college for a semester or two or a couple years until you are ready. Or you can try it part time, or there are community colleges and vocational ones too. I personally believe that rage and fear and worry come from a feeling of being trapped. But you have a lot of options and you can improve your quality of life if you can face your parents or muster the will to focus on classwork. It's your life and really it is all about quality of life.