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I read it all and I totally sympathize for just about the same reasons as you. If you want to meet some women who are older you'll have to go to where they are. It depends on if you get out of the house or not or have transportation or live near a city. For example, if you are into crafts there may be a sewing shop with meetups. Personally, I am into BJDs (ball jointed dolls) so would want to meetup with others who have the same interest. Is there something that you do, sew, cook, travel, sports, that might help you to meet others of your age or older? I don't know what kind of a school you go to but some have groups which you might find appealing, like photography groups or something else you might like. The only way to meet others is to be proactive. I'm an introvert and I find this to be really hard to do but since a new friend will not spontaneously appear on your doorstep I think you'll have to make efforts to find one. Sometimes you can do this online too, find people nearby with the same interests.