[Rosekitten]

Almost a week and he had more then enough time to go over everything, not that he already hadn't a hundred times over. He could have prevented all of this, hell if he had been thinking or planned the original rescue better he could have gotten Mizuki out of there and maybe it would have been only him that was captured. That would have been the better outcome. Maybe then none of this would have happened. Though that same outcome also told him that Mizuki wouldn't have rested till they had located where he was.

He couldn't win for losing, not to mention Luna hardly helped with a almost constant death threat that if Mizuki didn't wake up she was going to kill him. Though she probably wasn't being serious, even she knew there was little that would have changed all of this. That raid had all but destroyed that town and they had taken quite a number of players. The list posted of those missing was rather lengthy indeed.

Heck at one time he had tried talking Neimi into some sort of status effect reversal. Normally used to take the helpful effects though it could work on harmful ones as well. The idea was to see if it would switch the damage done or not. Though she didn't agree to that plan saying that things would work out and he needed to stop blaming himself already. Though Luna normally would turn right around and remind him this was his fault or something along the lines.

Defeated might be a better word, Mizuki never stirred once during the past few days and all he could think of was that if he had kept his mouth shut or had just tried to open up to the other instead of second guessing everything. But no because he was a damned idiot this happened. Hell the marks on Mizuki were his fault too, ok granted the other got a number of good shots in as well but still that was beside the point.

It was almost all Neimi could do to get a few words out of him as they traveled. Even Felix was saying how odd that was, he had tried everything and there was no smart ass comment to be had. A day or so ago was when he finally told Luna to stop it because she wasn't helping make things better. She wasn't, and they were all worried about Mizuki so she didn't have to target Thalion to vent her feelings.

Everything hurt to be honest, probably lack of sleep and eating didn't help. But he had tried to go over anything to help Mizuki. Blood rituals were a option, according to Felix but he said Neimi would kill him if she heard him mention such a thing. Let alone he wouldn't let him go on with such a idea either.

By the time Mizuki started to stir Thalion had dozed off a bit, though it was next to impossible to stay asleep with how this road they were on was. Besides that he swore he heard something. His ears went back a little as a second noise seemed to follow the first. Though he figured he was losing it by now.

At the next bump from the road the gasp and groan was what finally caused him to open his eyes and look at the other. Though only a moment later did he see the sight he swore he never was going to get to see again. At first he wasn't sure what to do and thought he had lost it finally. Though hearing the other speak was what made him finally think maybe this wasn't one of his minds tricks tormenting him again.

His ears went back before he even bothered moving. He wasn't sure if he should do what he did but really he couldn't help himself, hell at his luck Mizuki would close his eyes again and that would be the last time so he wasn't about to let this one slip by without saying a few things at the very least. He was lucky Luna was busy with the horses at this time, she had a sixth sense when it came to Mizuki.

Moving to be closer to the other before he pulled Mizuki close he nearly started crying at the thought this might be the last time he got to see those eyes open. "I'm sorry.." He whispered before he continued. "I was such a idiot and this happened... I never got to say what I needed to." He had to say it now, if anything happened and he never got the chance to say it he'd never forgive himself. "I love you.. I really do I mean it I know what I said before and I'm sorry."