[Espy]

Double post coming up because I don't want people to have to face walls of text...Shhh.

Originally Posted by Maro

Well, I don't feel fully female or fully male even though my body is blatantly that of a female and I was even pregnant..

To be honest, I don't give a damn whether people think of me as a guy or a girl. I'm rather androgynous physically, have a low voice, can swap easily between speech styles, and enjoy confusing people. I guess I'm fortunate in that regard.

There are days when I walk into a bathroom and get funny looks. Those are the good days. They make me laugh.

I most days I want to just curl up and not go anywhere or look in a mirror because I'm not a man and yet I don't think I could ever go through transitioning due to the fact I don't feel fully right as a man. I always have people saying, "You're a beautiful young woman you should act/dress like it." But I don't feel like a woman most of the time and I don't even feel beautiful thanks to a life of being called ugly by 90% of the people I've met. I've even asked people, "How would you feel if I became a man/was born a male?" Most of the time the answer is quite negative..

-chuckles- My version of that last question. Oh boy. I've asked my parents that before; the reply was also pretty negative. I don't think they understood why I asked them that. I mean, my dad thinks LGBT people are strange and should just do their thing quietly. My mom's a bit more open to this, but she still thinks I should act more like my assigned sex. Ahaha. I've had too much practice walking on the line between male and female, though, and I enjoyed treading on that boundary.

I have one person who actually supports me aside from my homosexual uncle who lives on the mainland. I could keep going but the rest is better to tell you in the privacy of skype.

Hey, I fully support you. Don't worry about what other people think. Nothing is real, everything is permitted.