[Helsinki Harlot]

All righty! Ready to go; sorry for spelling errors or something but we're hammered on whiskey.

Oh my lord; I have to simplify everything you said but "trannier-than -thou-" "gayer-than-thou" that, that "you're not good enough". And they're the loudest voices. And... lord I saw a recent campaign thing about oh so you're "an ally", BS. "You don't know what it's like" so they're not worthy of being counted. And... just I feel like the LGBT+ community is not helping themselves. All massive social change was brought on by moderates. They're just pushing it back.

Yeah. Just. I... Sarah, she's my love. We dated for a few years, but I still when I talk about my sexuality prefer men. But I don't count. I don't "have as much to loose". I'm sorry. I still couldn't have married her, my momma when she saw us kissing gave me the "where did I go wrong" speech. But apparently because I like men too I don't count. I'm not 'gay' enough.

That's. Really amazing. And you will eventually end up getting shafted by someone about sexuality and gender issues. But I'm glad, especially in those classes that you had that. Me and Sarah, we haven't dated in about two years but we still love each other and people will come up to us and go "how long have you been together" "I'm so happy you're confident and open", and I've heard LGBT+ community going; "They shouldn't say anything to me, I'M not that different. Rude fuck who wanted to tell me that they thought I was doing something special." And I think that's rude as fuck for that person, because imho it's not a regular social phenomena. Now the world is getting so much better and they actively try to make sure anyone knows that YES, it's okay. And you be god damn proud.

Imho; there's no such thing as "tried harder to make friends". Yes, as human beings a lot of are hard wire for social contact. But not having any, or having a hard time making that network, isn't a fault.

Thanks for saying that. I asked someone "prominent" in a community of LGBT+ and she asked me to see if I could find someone to talk to, ask about the first few things you feel. She's... the way she was raised was very she doesn't branch out, so she wanted help, and I got chewed out for asking for help on her behalf. It hurt a little.

And yeah, 'cause she does feel that way. And what we sometimes talk about is that she doesn't even have to identify as one sex or one gender. She can switch if she wants. It's just hard to branch out and she's already to begin with insecure about her body. And this guy got pissed at me for asking about... branching out and experimenting with the idea, to see if that actually does make me comfortable. They got so.... mad.... at me. "It's an experiment. It's just a THING." And it's... just... I thought the only way you figured anything out about yourself is to try. And she never went and asked them personally because they treated me like that (too sweet, I keep thinking I DID overstep my bounds).

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