[Helsinki Harlot]

We're cheesy as all balls with each other. <3

Yeah. I used to have people close to me like that. Hardest part is learning to let them go and go fuck that and trying to find people who are actually close and there for you. Life long friends. But it takes time and so much trust. Sorry you had that shit. That type of BS ruined my first apartment experience and helped make me fail an entire YEAR of college. All F's. For two semester.

I'm super SUPER curvy so I understand. And before my medical problems got real bad (had them since I was a kid and it's getting worse, at 15 they told me I was going to be in a wheelchair before 30); but before that, I did a lot of sports. And I was gymnist for a bit so I got those broad shoulders that add extra weight. I'm stocky, curvy. But that's a perfectly decent weight to be at. :]

All my favorite pictures of myself are about that time. Lookin' back, I'm very happy with that. (But of course at the time I couldn't stop loosing weight. Wish I didn't have the BS people in my life that made me obsessed about my weight.)

Haha, that's fine. Most people don't. I mean, what do you say? I love my parents but now that I'm older I'm finally realizing you can love someone and still be angry, and mad at them for the way they treated you. Some of the shit my parents said/did to me was fucked up.

Yeah. I've started several threads on shows and other things and it always dies within a day. xD;

Moving a lot helps with that feeling of 'no one's actually there'. I'm lucky. My bff from Finland (born and bred Helsinki), I still talk to. 'Cause she's an amazing person. We're ONE day apart. I was born July 1 she was born July 2 of the same year. But I rem. (My mom was born in Egypt. So I've lived in Egypt, Germany, Finland, and then Texas. And we've moved a lot of houses in between) having all these friends who said they'd keep in touch but they didn't really care that much. And maybe it's a young kid thing. You're just interested in so many other things.

But yeah; no. It sucks.