[Rosekitten]

Mizuki didn't seem to say or do anything for a while. Great he had made things worse than what they were, if that was possible. Maybe retreating would be a good idea right about now, while the other was recovering from what just happened. Though he couldn't move if his life depended on it, he had been going over what he would do if he saw Mizuki again. Even if Mizuki had never said a word he thought he would have done the same thing. If he kept pushing away things would never get better.

It was about when he was giving up when Mizuki seemed to place a hand on his face before kissing him again. This one was different though. It wasn't one that was rushed into a sudden decision mixed with emotions that were forced to the side for so long as well as a fear that it wasn't returned. No this one... this was what he had wanted for some time now, even if he denied it to himself. Something that could never happen. Though he could be just making all of this up if he was passed out somewhere for all he knew.

Probably if he hadn't of been drinking earlier he wouldn't have been so bold to do the first kiss. Let alone he'd be more than on edge right now. He was so use to keeping his guard up that he wasn't sure what to do when he didn't. Listening to Mizuki talk, he should have seen it in truth. All of the hints that were there, yet he was blind or too dense to notice them until now and this was years later.

It was probably a good thing it was late, they would be left alone for this talk. Even in his current state Thal would probably clam up easily if someone were to show up. Mizuki knew that thought, he was never one to express his emotions. "Heh.. Honestly I feel a bit foolish for not noticing. Thinking back on everything I should have said something sooner." Though he had always tried to push such thoughts aside, even back than he didn't want anyone that close or that much in control of him.

That is what Verdia meant by she understood why Thal pushed Mizuki away. The one person who could get Thal to do whatever he wished if he asked it. Shaking his head a little he sighed. "Don't be, I had known for months that I was leaving. I kept trying to figure out some way to tell you without upsetting you but nothing came. I regretted not saying a word to you for years after I left. I should have, even if you were still angry back than it would have been better than just leaving."

He kept having the question come to mind of what now? Here they both were admitting feelings for the other. But to what end? Thal would have to return to base sooner or later. He wasn't a high rank to say the least so there wasn't a chance of staying around here to sort things out further with Mizuki. He laughed weakly thinking about it. "Go figure... things did change and now I can't do anything to keep them that way." Probably tomorrow he'd have to go back, it was so late already.