[Belial]

One thing I don't understand, if you wouldn't mind explaining it to me.
If you feel lonely and are more comfortable being social online, why would you cut yourself off from that?

I guess I don't know how removing a social venue that enables you to open up and talk, gets rid of loneliness.

You do seem awfully hard on yourself from your op, I don't know if the stress from that helps anything either. If someone didn't want you around or talking to them, I am sure they would tell you.

You assuming you are a terrible person for wanting things such as warmth, affection, and friendship. . . .You seem to be beating yourself up for wanting what you should already have in your life. That isn't your failure, you can't be responsible for other people.