[Pathosis]

I'm an emotional wreck when someone dies...

I've lost all of my grandparents, all but one, before I was born.
So only my grandma counts since I knew her for the first 5 years of my life.
I didn't go to her funeral because of my age, but I feel happy/sad when I look back on what memories I have of her.
I lost my "Granny" Betty, who was my Grandma's friend but also very close with us, in grade 8.
That was an extremely hard time for me, because I loved her to pieces.
And I lost my aunt (who I was vaguely familiar with because she was on my dad's side of the family) shortly afterwards. It's the only funeral I can remember going to.
It's a bit of an angry memory, because my father didn't even show up to his own sisters funeral.
He's a dead beat dad who hasn't lived up to any of his expectations, but you would think he'd show up when his immediate family dies.

And just yesterday my aunt's close friend had a really rare brain stem stroke.
Today we found out she isn't going to make it, and my aunt had to help the son and daughter decide on taking her off of life support.
I barely knew the woman, she was a waitress at one of our few good restaurants, but I still feel like crying for her loss.
And her families.
And my aunt's.
Ugh.