[Glitch]

So I was going to have a baby and lost it recently. . . I haven't been able to get my feet beneath me and I feel weird all the time. Like depressed but also kind of in denial about it.

I am only posting about it here because someone said something completely harmless but it made me feel like I wanted to punch them, so I thought I'd ask for advice on how to channel emotions rather than bottling them up.

Last night I went to a friend's house that my boyfriend hadn't remembered to tell we lost it too, and I couldn't bring myself to tell them so I just sat like a lump on the couch the whole time. I don't know what to say or how to act or how to handle it.

Also today one of my higher up bosses called and when she got me on the phone (I am one of two receptionists) she immediately told me she heard what happened and asked how I was doing, I didn't know what to say.I just feel like I'm lying to people and myself and now complete strangers making silly poem posts about children is making me want to curse them out for no real reason. Bah I don't know and I don't know that anyone could offer any advice.

I just don't know how to handle the news or how to handle the things people find to say to me - I don't think I can just keep ignoring it and pretending I didn't hear it. I don't want to take my feelings out on other people. :(