[Ginger]

Well, my mother has decided to check herself in to rehab for her mental illness. The problem I'm having is that I am living with her until I can find work, however we are moving out of our current place and she'll have the hospital to go to, but I will be homeless. I have no way of taking care of myself and I'm feeling defeated. No businesses here in this small town have given me the light of day. I applied for work several times at the few places there are to apply and checked on my applications, and got nothing. Just turned 21, haven't had a job and haven't had education beyond my high school diploma. The hospital my mom is going to is a three-week stay.

I'm facing some inner feelings of defeat and feeling very anxious and vulnerable. I feel like I have no one I can turn to anymore and that I'm not accepted wherever I go. It's to the point of me thinking if I "steal" a dvd then I can go to jail for a while, where at least there's food and a place to sleep. I don't even know why I'm typing any of this but I guess I'm just letting everyone know that my activity on here is going to be slowed by the end of the month.