[Meizicht]

Yeah, I just saw the post. And it's locked. Dunno why though ( I'm not a mod, so. lol )
Unfortunately, recently it's been the only place where I can let off some of the stuff I've been on about. So I'm a bit irked. Was kind of my haven and helped me calm down a lot and now I can't at the worst time possible. OTL
I feel like a shitty person because this situation has nothing to do with me, other than the fact that I'm worried and it involves Kai. Like I'm being too selfish by needing to vent.

It's kept me from doing very stupid things, and I can filter it all out without pushing my friends away with my rants like I used to ( sometimes I still do, but it's not as much as I used to. )
With it not there, I'm not sure where else to put it. I can't really bottle it up lol. x__x;