[Helsinki Harlot]

Yay cigs! -chain smokes while on her laptop- We finally got rain too so it smell awesome.

Kira; Haha. We were at the neighbors birthday thing and his girlfriend called and I was like' go handle that". Walked into the wrong building and we had to follow him to say "hey, wrong one". He lives on his own so she doesn't live with him. I know a TON a bout his girlfriend and her being british and whatever and that's cool beans. Just, I grilled him and pushed him on it and he told me they weren't actually dating so fine. Just, I'm a god damn adult. If you messed up 'cause you were a little drunk and little brain got the best of big brain, FINE. Just tell me instead of sending me to the wrong door, inviting me in, and then telling me to get the fuck out after telling me "you're the most perfect girl I've ever met". Fuck you. Just be honest with me.

/ More positive note! Yay for your kiddo. All the best wishes.


Eki; Thank you sweetheart. :) Makes me smile. I'm not a very vindictive person as a rule but, I dunno. What will happen will happen I just hate feeling like a fool.

Battybby; It started out as a conversation about religion and politics. Especially international politics and then to social issues and elections and history and colonialism. I knew he was taken so I just wanted to talk and then this guy just goes for me. So I'm confused as all hell.

And one of the worst parts is, you know I have self harm scars. He stripped me to my underwear. So the scars on my stomach and my thighs were clearly visible. I did NOT want to show him that. Even when we were doing stuff I wouldn't let him completely undress me or do certain things. He saw, ALL of my scars. And they look like self harm scars. And I have a ton of them. I don't have casual sex very often because of that and he just B-lined through everything. Those were not his to see.

<33 Same feels. I told Sarah in the car when we were driving (other than I can't wait for her to get online) how I'm trying to save money to visit you. :) Because you're amazing.