[Helsinki Harlot]

Her upstairs neighbor. Our balcony is right below his. ): So I'll have a daily reminder. Just fuck.

Just say nice things about me. <3 And be you the way you always are. You always make my mood go up so. :] I just, I want to stop feeling so cheap even tho' technically I have no reason to. I cleared EVERYTHING before I let him kiss me again. So I did my part. But this is the first time I've trusted "Hey, maybe I am actually attractive and he wants fun things". The first time in a year I've given it a chance. And this is what happens? Hell, I told him I'd been abused by men so he had to be sure of his intentions. And then... fuck. Sending me to the wrong apartment? His across the hall neighbor. Knocked on the door, no answer, so did a softer knock and then decided "fuck this" and then heard his door open and just fuck. Can't you be god damn honest with me? I am so.... humiliated right now. I feel so stupid for standing there in my PJ's knocking on a strangers door. And I have social anxiety disorder.

But yeah, just be your loving self. You make me smile.