[Helsinki Harlot]

Hell yeah! :) October event. Hope people participate! I have an art thread in the art forum if you want to check out my work. (Not that you should need an incentive to be active in the forum.)

Battybby; I was too busy bawling my eyes out for a few hours once I got back to Sarah's. I'm a tough girl. I can handle shit I don't mind one night stands. But don't play me off. I was so... humiliated. I haven't stopped drinking yet. Slept for awhile and then woke up and had a kick back. He asked me to write down my number so I found some sticky note pack, he was so excited (other than the panty ripping) that he pulled my shirt up and off to where they landed on the floor and broke apart. I told Sarah that and she picked up the pieces from the floor so I wouldn't have to look at them.

Just. Argh. I feel, awful as hell. Sarah's made me feel a bit better. She could tell he was up my ass from when we started talking. And from the rest of it her positive spin on it was he couldn't help being so attracted to me. So that made me feel a little better. But. Argh. I just. I have been just about celibate for a year. And he was clever and smart. And attractive. And a guy that was into me. He kissed me and I ground into his head "GIRLFRIEND GIRLFRIEND GIRLFRIEND". But he said they weren't actually dating. And then end of the night "you should leave I have a girlfriend." Just. FUCK. Why does this always happen to me?