[Meizicht]

Neon: ^^;; I actually think so too ( though lets keep this genderless please. Neither A nor B should be thought of with a specific gender in order to keep things unbiased ).
Honestly, I should say here
that I am A, and my boyfriend Kai is B.
I always regret the things that I say ( even while I'm saying them ) to try and get him to pay attention to me, or do things with me, and I get terribly upset when he leaves, even for short periods of time, so I make him feel guilty; there is no excuse for it. But it's like a conditioned reaction.
I know, still no excuse. It's amazing how he has dealt with my crap for as long as he has.

I tried to ask this as vague as possible, because I knew I had friends here who would be biased since they know me, but not that side of me, since I only show it to him. All abuse is evil, and I'm one of the abusers; I know this. I want to change it, but no matter how hard I try, it just goes back to being the way it is.

I'm showing Kai this thread so he can make a decision himself, but.. yeah. Like I described before, he doesn't seem to care about my attitude, and has been reassuring me instead, which I don't deserve. x__x;

Bottom line is I'm abusive and he doesn't seem to mind.. which doesn't make it right.
The general response though, was to talk about it, so I'm trying to talk to him about it to see why I'm like this and if I can patch it up to where I don't act like this anymore. I know nobody wants to hear excuses from an abusive person, but wouldn't it be better for the abuser to be fixed instead of continuing to abuse others? Or maybe I'm simply a lost cause. xD;;

I'm trying, though.. Although that doesn't make me a good person, just to try. I'm still abusive, and that in itself is evil.