[Helsinki Harlot]

Originally Posted by Batty

Harlotbby;; Goddamnit, I wish you fucking lived closer. I would never leave the bed. Like. Ever. For more than one reason <3

I can't have one, because if I do, I'll just get yelled at and told I'm being stupid, that I'm fine, and that I'll live. But the thing about it is... I won't be able to get passed it for awhile. I'm trying to take steps in the right direction, and I'm fuckin' freaking myself out. ><;

-nuzzles into your shoulder-

I just wish I was normal. WELL. NOT NORMAL. But, normal where foods concerned. It would save a LOT of people from a lot of things.

Tell me about it hot stuff. <3 Tho' we'd have to get out eventually. Unless we got wheels on the bed. That could actually end up kinda cool. d:

It's called an anxiety/panic attack for a reason. It's irrational and an issue. It's not something you flip a switch on and talk yourself through. Most people don't have fits like that so it's god damn retarded to tell someone "just get over it, you're fine." NO. Because it doesn't feel fine, and no one will ever know how much it's making your heart race and stop at the same time, and the weird head spiny feeling and shit like that. If you need to freak out, FREAK OUT. Letting it out is a good thing. Yeah, I think you shouldn't have an issue with that gorgeous body of yours and I want you to eat better, but that doesn't mean you should be mandhandled during your freak outs. There's bad thoughts in your brain that make you feel this way, it shouldn't be taken lightly. Baby steps is just damn fine. :) You do what you gotta sweetheart, keep that backbone. <3 -snuggles with you-

You're awesome, and lovely, and full of spunk and life. Just gotta keep fighting. :] And food's different for everyone. Not all people can do certain things. Don't hate on yourself too much. And for shame on food handling after a freak out. ): Not good combo.