[Batty]

Well, one thing I definitely can't talk about. The other thing, I can. xD;
It'll just shine a bad light on my mom, for the moment.

I was helping mom cook, and, she fucked up the rice BIGTIME. It got all mushed and burnt together, so I PICKED at some of the burnt pieces, And, when she went to go give zane, herself, and my sister their share, she claimed "there wasnt enought left for anyone"

Then, when I had asked what she meant by that, I got the DIRTIEST look, was told she was just going to keep her mouth shut, and then we got into it. So essentially, for finally taking the initiative to eat, I got yelled at for it. When she finally realized that she'd

A] Made me throw myself back into "I'M A FATASS AND NEVER EATING AGAIN" mode, she apologized.

B] Told me she was just frustrated because of the electricity, and didn't mean to take it out on me. But, to an anorexic, and someone who NEVER admits to wanting to eat, that really fucked me for the rest of the day.
I FINALLY took the initiative. do you know how HARD that was for me? And then, she turns around and YELLS at me for it?

I know half of the house not having electric really frazzled her, especially because it was blistering hot, and its the side that the AC's on that blew, but.. come on. That wasn't right.

She feels horrible now, but.. it doesn't change anything for me today. I haven't eaten yet.. and its already 2AM.